Thursday, February 21, 2008
Ah... back home. On my com. Finally. Unfortunately, my Grandfather passed away last saturday. It was a morning when my mom called to tell me the sad news.
16th Febuary 2008, Saturday
When I arrived, he was lying there.... so still. Police arrived and we were all talking. Preparations for a 5 day funeral was being prepared for after a doctor arrived to pronounce my grandfather dead. Things were going smoothly and all was fine.
17th Febuary, Sunday
Today, the coffin was closed as it was left opened for my aunt to return from China. After that, things went back to what we were doing. Folding paper, changing joss sticks every now and then and the usual hunger will bug us to walk to the nearby coffeeshop for something to eat. At nite, I learnt how to play mahjong(FINALLY) from my aunt, uncles and cousins who knew how to play. It was considered not entertainment but things to do to pass the time. Anyway... the amazing thing is that i thought they all did not know how to play. Oh well.
20th Febuary, WednesdayI went home at 7.30 am for a bath and some needed sleep ( ONLY 2 HOURS). Arrived in Bedok at around 1PM. After greeting everyone, we all got ready to leave for Mandai Crematorium. In the crematorium, everyone was quiet, getting ready for the most saddening moment of the whole thing. After the rites were done, we walked in a viewing room where we saw the box my grandfather was in for the last time as it was loaded into the incinerator to be burnt. At this moment, all the emotions which were held back was poured out. Uncles and some cousins wept quietly, I could feel the sadness filling the room. Until then, I was still trying to hold back my tears.
At this moment, I knew that nothing was as bleak as a human life. What we accomplish and did not will not hold us back from the final breath. This is something no amount of money can buy us out of and something all of us will have to face one day. And really, what will be remembered of us is not the amount of money and wealth we leave behind but the goodness that comes out of our hearts (not pockets).
Anyway. Ah Gong... I hope and pray that you will have a easier time wherever you are now. We miss you. (Not saying it was a good thing but I thought that it was a release from the almost frail body. I could feel suffering at every breath, cough and every mouthful of food.)
Today, we went back to Mandai Crematorium to collect his ashes. What used to be my Grandfather 1 month back was now a heap of bones. After placing him in his final resting place beside my Grandmother, whom I never saw, I went to E2MAX Cineleisure to collect Cabalsea which I opted to test its beta version. Thats all from now.... I am seriously exhausted for the past few days of NO sleep.
kY
; Think. Not talk.
4:54 PM
