Monday, March 24, 2008
24th March 2008. Easter Sunday!
Today... nothing much really happened. As usual. Nothing really happens. Anyway... mahjonging today was fun.... Yes and going to church to celebrate Easter or Ressurection Sunday. Just ended 3 rounds of DotA. Yes... I lost all. Due to a noob that fed... Oh my goodness.... I almost fainted.
There's just alot of things I do not get. For one, is why am I unable to communicate properly with people I want to get to know bettter. Really... I cannot get over this... I don't tell others how am I feeling and I just expect them to understand where I come from and what kind of a person I REALLY am... most of you all just know me as a smiley =) But really, that ain't it. I really AM a nut to expect people to do know me better when I am too embarassed to say anything to anyone, I grew up from young not getting a chance to say how I really feel about someone or something just to avoid certain embarassing events.... so much so that today, it really sealed my mouth shut to the world. Just hate it... if there's one thing I can change... it is this. But there's really nothing I can do. Just gonna try my best though.
I really look up to people who can present themselves without the fear of anything.... being laughed at and such. And the thing is.... there are just so many of these people around me. Sometimes I think that I'm the only one like this. Its suffering. Its torture.
Anyways.... I'm so hungry now... but I told myself that I must reduce my BMI to below 25.... its freaking 29.4 now. I am so ashamed! I gotta do something! SOMEONE HELP ME! Please.
; Think. Not talk.
2:10 AM
