Saturday, March 29, 2008
I am jealous. Jealous of people who have younger brothers who RESPECT THEM. Jealous of the bonds some of my friends have with their families. 16 years and a few months in this world with one brother one sister and parents, I have YET to feel close to any of them. I just really wonder if I was mistakenly switched at the hospital or something. Just feel so far away. To make things worse is, given my character, I just find it hard to relate and tell people how I feel. I would 95% of the time give a false cover. The 5% is really hard to find. Until now, I only told three persons how I felt. But I guess, they have their own lives to live and cannot really handle crap issues like mine. Just feel so alone at this moment.
Today... is a very very bad end to the supposedly "good" week I'm having. So much for not getting pissed at people.
I'm just so unsure.
; Think. Not talk.
1:34 AM