Friday, February 13, 2009
Been thinking. Now that I really dont know what am I doing with my life, my studies... I begin to think of how will this affect my family. My parents, for one, have been putting so much of their confidence in me... and throughout my 17 years and 4 months in this world, time and again I keep making them so very disappointed. I did not realise this until now. Is it too late.
And the stupidest part is.... I do not want to let them down in anyway. But I also want to do what I want.... which will, in most ways, let them down. Dont know what I'm doing....
This is bullshit.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
; Think. Not talk.
10:29 PM
